Depressing

in the office again, i fell aslp for about 1 1/2 hrs sitting upright, now im sore all over. I was just sitting and reading the news just now and i just realized that singapore is really very lucky, if there weren't so many islands and countries like malaysia and indonesia surrounding us, we would have been hit by the tsunami too, and that would be the end for this small pathetic island. we'll be like the next atlantis! what a scary thought...seeing the death toll rise and rise by the minute is scary and depressing. people are wiped out so easily, in a blink of an eye, anyone can say byebye. so appreciate your loved ones that are now by your side including grandparents and aunts and uncles no matter how loud they are..

another depressing thought. i was in the MRT on the wat home yesterday and i realized that i just seemed like any other corporate person going home from work. it just hit me that a few years down the road, this is how it would be like, the same dreary motions which i have to go through day after day. im 18 now, i'll be 20 in 2 years and than 25 and etc...i cant cry for what i want like a 2 yr old kid, neither can i be like a 8 year old kid who climbs up basketball posts for fun. i used to want to grow up real quickly cause i thought that adults had all the fun, but now i wish it was the other way round, like in the mercedes ad where you are born old and die young.